Tick… tick… tick… I can hear the rain against my window. I can hear a random car pass by. My eyes are heavy so I close them. I pull my blankets high.
Tick… tick… tick… I lay on my side, hand under my head with a pillow in between.
Tick… tick… tick… it’s 1:45 in the morning. I’ve been in bed since 11. I just want to sleep.
Tick… tick… tick… I listen as time passes me by.
It’s 3 o’clock. I’ve been tossing and turning. I’m exhausted. My alarm is set to go off in 6 hours and I haven’t slept. My first psychiatrist appointment is today at 10. I’m hoping he can help me.
Tick… tick… tick.. it’s 3:30. I haven’t slept a wink. It’s been like this for at least a week. It’s not that I’m uncomfortable. I don’t know why I can’t sleep.
Insomnia sucks. I can’t think. My counselor is worried that I’ve relapsed. I am unmotivated. That’s why I haven’t worked on my blog for a while. I have no energy to. I stare into nothing. I lay in bed all day.
I just want to sleep.