I’ve been doing so well. I’ve been focused, motivated and mostly pain free. But three weeks ago, it started to go downhill. For whatever reason, I had a headache that just wouldn’t go away! It lasted just short of two weeks!
Seeing my chiropractor and my massage therapist didn’t help. The constant pain just took my energy away. I couldn’t focus on anything. It made me pretty miserable. I couldn’t function.
On top of that, my antidepressants aren’t working like I’d like them to, my doctor wanted to switch my medications. So on the 20th, I started Venafelaxin 70mg. The side effects of this medication is similar to the ones I’d been taking previously, but since this is a new medication it affected me just as much as it did the first time.
I’ve been so lethargic. I’ve had no energy. I always feel exhausted. All I’ve been wanting to do is sleep the days away. And that’s what I did. I’d sleep at night, when Riley is in school or at his dad’s. If I’m not sleeping, I’m laying down. It’s like my meds just took all my energy and motivation away.
I know I’ve got things to do – at home and for the blog – but I just couldn’t muster the energy to do them. That made me feel worse, you know? You can say that I’m an overachiever. I like to set goals for myself and I like to accomplish those goals by the set time of completion. This whole getting-sick business wasn’t on the agenda. Being behind on all my goals started to have an affect on me. I felt stressed that I was so behind.
But why stress? I shouldn’t stress. I didn’t start blogging for it to become a stress inducer. I really shouldn’t stress because it’s not like anyone knows I’m behind schedule except me. I set the tasks. I set the schedule. I put the pressure on myself but it’s not as if I’m back in school where I’d get marks taken off for being late. I created the schedule to make things easier for me, so that when I’m able to batch posts it means that I’ve got posts for that many weeks. I guess I didn’t think about the pressure I’d